Drowning on Dry Land

cheesy? mellow dramatic? possibly. probably. all signs point to yes. i literally made 4 pages of excel spreadsheets this week for all the things i have to get done. i am learning how to say no. i am learning that it's ok to not be able to figure out everyone's issues. i am learning that i can't do everything for everyone. i can't tell you how many times in the last 2-3 years i've heard something along the lines of "she doesn't have kids, she has time to do it". that's EXACTLY why i DON'T have time to do it. i am deciding my mental health is more important than being everyone's "go to" person. so sorry if i'm not able to do something for you. i really wish i could but sometimes it might not be possible. i really only have one whole day every other week "off" and i use the term off loosly b/c by 6pm i'm back "on" but whatever ;).
it's ok for me to make "appointments" with myself in my schedule book and when people ask me for something that day, i don't have to give them my life story as to why i can't, i can just say, i have plans. those plans might just include me in my pajama's on the hammock with a book, but they don't need to know that. sorry i'm rambling but for my sanity i needed to vent for a few minutes. thanks for listening. sorry to be so dramatic and oh woe is me. tomorrow i have a date with my pj's and Holden Caufield (The Catcher in the Rye, it's a book lest you think i have a real date haha) I probably won't take a shower until noon when I have to get ready for a meeting and really start my day.

i hope you all can take a mental health day soon too! it's a growing epidemic!

alright off to make 1 or 2 more spreadsheets....yipppppy!